RANT: the other half of the human species

fuck i would like to say I'm over women, once and for all t be able to say that and mean it would be such a relief in my life,

but i know at the same time it would create such a void,

i know males and females will never see eye to eye, i know we think differently and have different moral sensibility's but it just seems like ever since i got back to Australia and became single again back in feb 08, all i have done is create trouble for my self with the opposite half of our species,

i know I'm not the best guy in the world but i try, and every time i make a decision i feel at the time it is best for everyone involved,

i care for those i can, and maybe to much so, and maybe i am drawn to the wrong women in the first place, but i try, and i fall head over heels over and over again, only to land on my own face down in the mud,

every time with for-site i can truly say that i look back and see that it was my fault in some way or another.


it scares me, that the people i want to be with seem not to want to be with me, when my dad was my age he was married, now that didn't end well but at least he had found some one willing to marry him, and with my brother at my age, he was in the middle of a 3 year relationship,

these days I'm lucky if i still have a female friend from that long ago let alone a partner for a couple of months,

i don't mean do be a downer or sound sorry for my self, coz in alot of ways I'm not, and in other way's I'm just not aloud to be, i enjoy my life, but sometimes i just think things could be a little easier, a little more comforting

i guess with whats gone on around me the last week in my own and in several of my friends lives, the fickleness of relationships has come to the front of my vision, and i just want to remind everyone, including myself to not take relationships (sexual or just friendships) for granted

good people are hard to come by, so i know for sure right now that even with out a good girl by my side I'm defiantly lucky to have as many good friends around as i do

peace love and respect to all those close to me,
gene